Symmetry my Dear

So this week while working and trying to finish Ace of Blades. Writer's Block just came and sucker punched me when I least expected. But I recovered quicker than I anticipated. So while trying to gather my thoughts and all that jazz. I was bored and watched Soul Eater. And Kiddo here gave me something to blog about symmetry. I know weird. I figured Kid and I had something in common which is OCD.  His is symmetry everything has to be symmetrical. And me well since I've been writing this book which I should have been finished by now but the thing about it is because I have OCD and when somehing isnt written like it is supposed to be I will erase the entire section and re do it from formatting to right where I left off. I was writing and then my brain got flustered with a bunch of junk until my brain just said F it you're going to spazz out which I did and had to re edit and proofread when my book isn't even finished I'm like 15% to completed and this Happens....SHEESH....talk about a Death the Kid melt down. I know when I start a new chapter I have to have the font and page settings correct before starting and I have to have everything set up a certain way or I feel nothing is accomplished and the whole entire material looks off. And when this happens I get writer's block and my mind then later burns me out and I end up looking like from cool and calm Kiddo up top to like this:

I hate to admit I have a serious problem. But it's something I cant control my writing is my own master piece it must be perfect. PERFECTLY SYMMETRICAL...T_T sadly this is why I am not finished I'm doing everything at once...Sheesh but I am determined to finish this book by the date I have set Which I shall post soon. Very very very soon....Scared to Say it though.....So much to do and so little time...Sheesh  I still have the book cover I have to work on...Since Elizabeth Hunter made a very very valid point. "Book covers sells books " - Elizabeth Hunter.
Well back to the drawing board.
STAY SYMMETRICAL DUDES... HEY YOU GET BACK IN LINE
* Runs after asymmetrical being with a mallet*

Road Blocks

Good Morning my loves....I had to blog about this because this week has been extremely challenging and yet rewarding. So I managed to tackle the tough and crazy chapter 16 of Ace of Blades trust me it was fricken tough. But I did get through it and I am working on Chapter 17 which I hope will be less painful. And Chapter 18 is going to be a breeze because I wrote it a few months prior My character Chiyei was pestering me to write about her so I had to. But anyway...So I am nearing the finish line very very soon. And so I wanted to blog about this because like I said this week has been really challenging and tapping on my nerves to the fullest. From my faithless family not believing in me to  many finanacial decisions I have to make and put into play by the end of this month. It is okay...God is good and He will see me through it. ALL... ( PLEASE UNDERSTAND I AM NOT TRYING TO IMPOSE MY BELIEFS ON ANYONE...SO PLEASE DO NOT GET OFFENDED. I ACCEPT EVERYONE.) 

So from my family tapping on my nerves to getting written up at work for being late, showing up to work for work 3 times in a row ( Lack of sleep does it to you when you work 16hr shifts.) to finally my phone freezing on me and my touch screen is messed up which prohibits me from making phone calls, receiving calls, and writing in my notebook app. ( And mind you all of my ideas are trapped in my phone.) Life I tell you can be such a pinch. But its all good. 

SAnd then worst of it all All my ideas that I have saved to my cell phone I risk of losing them if the phone company cannot fix my droid..Stupid me being cheap didn't want to buy a SD card at first but that is all going to change when I get the chance to put one in there. Then going to 3 reps from the wireless company they're all trying to get me into a new phone....I DONT THINK SO....unless you can extract my notes and all my ideas from my notebook app....Okay other than that...HECK NOW. I do admit it is my fault that I didn't back anything up but yet and still my phone I do have faith in it still. even though it is a droid 4 ( yeah yeah yeah hush ....to each their own.) It became my best friend and I refuse to relinquish my phone because that was my go to notebook when I got smacked into the head with a new idea. Writers like me understand.

Okay but the point I am getting at is this...As you near closer to the goal. The road tends to be more treacherous than it was when you began. I am not going to lie...I did feel discouraged because I could not work. Since my cell is my job phone and my notebook at hand when I cannot reach my laptop or a piece of paper. But being discouraged and angry isn't going to get the problem solved or fixed. You have to remain calm, positive and keep it moving. and Keep looking forward to the end. No matter what you're going through stay positive and keep a level head and accept the challenges and obstacles that are awaiting you... Because once you reach the finish line you'll look back and say..." Ha! I made it."

Have a good weekend all. 

Faithless

So my spirit was rocked heavily by a family member and I feel this is something that's  laying on my heart to say so just bear with me. A family member has been trying to dampen my spirits for the longest and I just refuse to give into it. I've noticed people tend to get very ignorant and I don't want to say vindictive but cross when they have no clue what you are doing...I don't understand why people want to get up into your business in the first place But think its okay to get into your own..Here take your own advice and MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS and GET SOME BUSINESS OF YOUR OWN...I had some family members kind of throwing darts at me for the longest asking me the most repetitive questions ever; Miki what are you doing with your life? What are doing period? What are you writing? Are you making any money writing? Are you finished writing your book? When are you going back to school? When does school come back into the factor? I think you need to look into the fraudulent detective job...I think you will like that.... I'm telling you...That's the new jobs surfacing... You are a about to be 30 what have you done so great with your life?... You are a bum you are a college bum. You have a good education and you've wasted it on doing this???? I can go on forever.
   And the sad part is its coming from my family who have lost faith in me. I will say one thing... Instead of you faithless people out there throwing darts and saying what you want to say and label without even knowing what the heck is going on. Why don't you sit back and be quiet and mind your freakin' business and find out what's really going on before posting judgement. People are so quick to post a judgement before finding out what the real deal is going on instead of waiting and finding out and sadly society has adapted to it as a norm.  It's hard out here enough for the next generation to come up and find jobs...so why make it harder on us???? Instead why don't you try being encouraging and try to be apart of what is going on. Not against it. Put away the judgemental darts and strip away the faithless and start having faith in people. How would you like it feel if  someone cast your ideas down??? I've been there and it hurt. So if you don't want it being done to you...Don't do it either. Practice what you preach and to the person that said to me earlier " We must be kind to one another."  You're as much of a sinner as I am...So my advice to you is judge yourself before you past judgement on me. Because it may look like misery to you.. But deep down to me I am content and joyous with myself in what I do and thank you.

I was given a vision for a certain career path and my career was given to me and engraved in my heart and cast in stone and I plan to fulfill it as long as I shall live. And I will be darned if I let some hypocritival, narrow-minded, ignorant, bonehead deter me from my dream. Everyday I am achieving my dream and I will not stop. For those of you that have faithless among you. Look them dead in the eye and tell them " Keep Calm and Have Faith" and just be quiet and watch. Because you are destined for greatness.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11